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Morning Music

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The dawn chorus began long before the sun crested the horizon. The evening’s cricket performance was still in full swing when it was joined by morning songbirds—perhaps confused by recent shifting weather patterns—who struck their first notes in the deep blackness of the night, calling for the day’s beginning long before the appointed rise of the curtain.

Groggy and unsure of the hour, the woman lay in the purple-dark room awakened by nature’s alarm clock. She kept no clock in the room, always disturbed by the idea of her uneven sleep being measured, and relied on the music provided by her tree-dwelling neighbors to alert her to the day’s beginning. The night had been long and restless, punctuated by frequent, unscheduled wake-ups with unsolicited thoughts whispering her to wakefulness. But, the woman had found, her brain rarely cooperated with her desire to rest.

Sitting up slowly, she groped for the glasses that waited at the top corner of her bed and, finding them, slid them onto her face before reaching out to draw back the blackout curtains that covered the bedroom window. Darkness greeted her. She sat staring out into the night, confused—perhaps more confused than the birds themselves. However, now that she was awake and no longer needed to wrestle insomnia, she threw her legs over the edge of the bed and rose to start her day, wondering what time it actually was.

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Medusa’s Lament

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Strolling quietly through the garden of rock I run my fingers over a pale shimmering face of marble.  Lifeless, the beauty still shines through: smooth cheeks, virgin to a razor’s edge; a lock of hair curled delicately down the center of a wide, unblemished forehead; large wide eyes framed by impossibly long lashes on either side of a strong, manly and chiseled nose; I try not to look at the mouth.  It would have been succulent once but it was forever drawn tight.  My first visitor.

I visit him often in the daylight hours.  When the sun glints off his hard white frame he looks almost alive.  Pausing in front of him momentarily I wish we could speak.  I ask again all the questions I had asked in the past. Why had he come?  Was it fortune?  I have none.  Was it fame?  A visitation to this desolate land could offer no recompense.  Who had sent him?  Only my sisters know where I am and none could have persuaded them to tell of my whereabouts. What did he want with me?  I had meant the boy no harm.  I have no animosity for any save two.

When  he had first come my hopes had soared.  Maybe he had come to rescue me.  Perhaps she had reconsidered.  Perhaps he had finally taken up my case. I had been alone for so long that the thought of a visitation, by anyone, excited me.  Not even the crows enter my domain.  My only company is the writhing retinue forever attached to my frame.  I didn’t know.  I couldn’t have known. How could I have known?  Since my transformation I had seen neither my own face nor that of anyone else.  My agony at the loss of this young boy’s life weighed on me.  The responsibility that was not mine but had been thrust upon me pressed me to my knees.  If I had tears to shed, I would have.  Alas, my weeping brings forth venom not tears and yet I call it weeping.  I still weep whenever I visit him.  My first companion.

My hand still cupping his cold smooth cheek I let my eyes wander over the landscape before me.  It is gray and brown.  Rocks and dead shrubs.  If they flourished once, they have not since my arrival.  Nothing lives here.  Not for long.  I miss green.  I miss flowers.  I miss birdsong.  I long for the sound of laughter.  The silence of this place is overwhelming.  It crushes me.  There was a time when I wished to know about the rest of the world beyond my island captivity.  The world doesn’t interest me anymore.  I wish for peace.  I wish for conversation.  Mostly, now, when the visitors arrive, I wish for solitude.  I know that no good can come from any stranger setting foot on my island.

One should not question the gods.  All good children are raised to follow this simple constant.  Once I too blindly did my bidding.  I did all that was asked of me and more.  I dedicated myself to her wisdom, her intelligence, her justice.  It was I who first suggested to my mother that my father might want to grant me to her temple.  What a pious offering!  To give his youngest daughter to the great goddess herself.  I sought no fame.  I sought no reward.  I wished nothing but to serve her and serve her I did.  That was not enough.  A woman can never give enough to satisfy a god.  He took everything from me and it wasn’t enough.  She, praised for her justice, her compassion, turned her back on me.  Do I question the gods?  No.  I curse them.

 

(This is the preface to a novel I am currently working on.)

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Castelvecchio

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Silent and cross legged she sat, the sun warmed stone feeling good on her bare legs.  Sound and sight obscured the tangible facts of her reality. Purple tinted mountains spotted with white cottages and houses jutted out of the distant grounds, pushing their way skywards. Brilliant, translucent, forrest-covered hills with ancient ruins stood on the opposite shore. And the river: the river churned and burbled; raged and wept; signed and sang as it rushed on its enduring path creating alternate spots of white capped rapids and glass smooth pools.

“My God,” she breathed. Feeling faint and a little unsure, Chadia stared in awe at her surroundings. Over and over her eyes returned to the river, watching the straw-like grass sway and dance in the flowing water. She knew that once outside the castle walls she would be thrown face first into the cold rough wall of reality, but here… here she was on another plane.

The grass, the river, the castle wall, all of these things had stood since a moment in time too far distant for her to comprehend. The mountains and trees, the ruins, none of these things had changed; permanent structures, ancient structures full of history and beauty surrounded by a cramped, boisterous, busy modern society. The contrast astounded her. It rendered her speechless, even thoughtless. Only emotion pumped through her ever absorbing body.

Reason had no place in her fascination of aesthetics.

From somewhere in the distance she heard bird-like squawking. Course and erratic, it had no home in her thoughts of serenity. She shook her head slightly to clear the grating noise from her ears.

“I wonder how it would haven been, in that time long ago, when this castle was first built.”  Closing her eyes to the blemishes of modern life, Chadia pictured the river, mostly unchanged, flowing placidly along its course, not impeded by the annoyances of garbage and waste. The distant purple crests stood nude in the background; no houses, no roads, no industry.  The ruins, well, the ruins would have always been there; since a time before time; a home for the ancient rites and entertainments, still, in this dark medieval hour, standing empty and unused.

The dream came to her in full force now as she watched her young chevalier, sitting erect on his horse, gallop over the bridge, through the gates, coming to a stop below where she sat. She smiled down upon him as he waved at her the white scarf she had given him for luck in jousting competitions. In a hurried flash he spurred his horse forward through the gates to the inner sanctum of the castle.

“My dream world, my castle.” Chadia looked down and saw the massive forms of the swans floating, hovering  in the straw-like grass of the river.  “Each morning I will go to feed them the moment I awake.”

Chadia shifted her weight on the sun warmed smooth marble feeling the deeper cold of the stone, the center core, a virgin to the sun’s heat. Gathering her skirts in her hands she rose to her knees and peered through the slits in the inner defensive wall.  Such a tiny crack.

One eye pressed to the opening she saw directly across from her the guards of the estate dressed in tunics of studded leather.  A young guard noticed the spy and, having seen her flirtatious exchange with the horsed rider, smiled at her, the princess of the castle.

“Days,months, years, I could sit on this wall and watch my world, our world, fall.” The words dreamily drifted off her lips, floating their way through the wall to the guard.

Growing tired all too soon of her obedient observer Chadia returned her attention to the country once more, the afternoon sun fading all around her, the purple peaks disappearing in the distance as night consumed them.

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A Garden Party

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Silently we lie belly down in the grass, eyes wide open, breath drawn, gripping each other’s hands in excitement, anticipation mounting. We have been here before multiple times over the past few months, each time sure that the previous had been nothing more than figment of some shared magical moment.

We look at each other, mouths stretching into wide grins, happy just to be together, sharing this moment of anticipation. Far too excited to continue looking at something as mundane as her mother, my sweet child squeezes my hand and turns her bright face back down the hill toward the row of not-yet-lighted miniature garden lamps swaying lazily on their hooks inches from the ground.

The sun slowly begins to kiss the horizon and the air seems to tangibly shift from a clear light to a liquid honey, tantalizing my sense of smell with each inhale.

“Mamma, look!” The words are a mere whisper on the wind as she gestures towards the daisy beds at the bottom of the garden where the bumble bees bounce from bloom to bloom, seemingly defying the laws of physics as they keep their heavy bodies aloft through the exertions of tiny translucent wings.

From the other side of the garden a kaleidoscope of butterflies kiss the honeysuckle wound around the garden arch.

As the daylight fades the lamps begin to glow, casting golden semi-circles of light on the ground beneath them. As if drawn by the light, slowly a family of squirrels wriggle their way towards the lamps and are met by a pair of rabbits approaching from the other direction. They meet by the lamps and touch noses, as if in greeting.

“Mamma! Did you see that? They spoke to each other!” I can feel the energy pulsing through her petite frame, her eyes glued to the scene unfolding beneath us. “It’s gonna happen, Mamma. Tonight. I can feel it!” She flattens her slight body into the ground, noticeably slowing her breath as if afraid any movement might break the spell.

My heart swells as I watch this dainty creature of mine visibly struggle to contain her bubbling enthusiasm. I feel the love for this child wash over me, her enthusiasm igniting my own and drawing me back to my youth and innocence.

I recall the days of crafting stories in my head about the magical worlds of backyard animals, how they lived and played, the troubles the encountered when facing the threat of en encroaching human world. My vision focused on the rabbit animations unfolding before me and attention tuned to the fabrications of my childhood dreams, a few moments pass before the purposeful nature of the actions unfolding beneath me crystalizes in my mind. The rabbits are taking position around the garden lamps.

As each one find his place in the garden another appears until every lantern has its own solemn sentinel, paw placed in delicate readiness on the glowing glass.

The darkness has grown thick around us and I squeeze my daughter’s hand as we silently watch the squirrels bow and retreat from the low border hedge as the leaves gently start rustling. Had I not been here before frequently throughout the summer I might not grasp the significance of such a minute motion, perhaps believing that the movement of the leaves indicated something which it did not.

The air is still, excepting the gentle flutter of wings, and the rustle of leaves gradually reveals itself to be the approach of this highly anticipated garden party.

In groups of three or four the delicate creatures, human in form but no larger than the tallest flowers, emerge from their hidden home in the hollow hedge, holding hands and kicking their minuscule feet and knees in what resembles a highland dance mashed with a rousing round of Ring-Around-the-Rosey. They dance and, barely audible over the rustling leaves and the evening’s orchestral tones, sing a music full of laughter and love, which invade every aspect of my heart, elevating me.

Hand in hand the creatures weave around the flower beds, bowing to the animal audience each in turn, terminating their advance in a circle at the center of the garden. The lanterns, held aloft by solemn rabbits, cast a hazy glow creating the illusion of a theatre in the round.

The garden party circles in time with the delicious sound of their tiny voices raised in praise of the delight of the evening, as slowly, one after the other, individuals break from the ring to perform his or her own individual physical interpretation of the night and music.

I break my gaze from the marvel below me to witness the pure and undiluted joy in the face of the girl dearest to my heart. Her light and innocence are breathtaking to behold.

“Mamma, there are fairies at the bottom of our garden!” They often have a dance on summer nights; the butterflies and bees make a lovely little breeze, and the rabbits stand about and hold the lights.* And we are the lucky two who are blessed by this enchanting joviality. I do not know why they chose our garden for their frequent fairy festivities but my heart tells me it is the innocence and imagination of my daughter who drew them. These otherworldly wonders surely are aware of our presence at their festivals of joy and celebration, and they approve.

The fairies dance on through the night as we watch them switching partners, changing the tune and tempo of their songs for each individual’s expression.

At long last the time comes to a close and our garden revelers retreat back to the outer circumference of their circle, each holding the hand of the companion on either side, and bow to each other. They turn to the animals—-birds, butterflies, bees, squirrels and rabbits—-who have assisted in the merrymaking, bowing low and respectfully to them before slowly melting into the shadows and returning to their mysterious home.

With the departure of the performers, the magic of the night seems to dissipate and the animal audience disbands, each turning homeward in his own way and time.

After a silent moment stretching through the cooling night air, my daughter turns to me, voice still hushed by the magic of what has just passed before our eyes, “We are the luckiest people in the world, Mamma. I will always believe in magic.”

I smile at her and silently agree. I kiss her forehead. “Yes, my love. I hope you always do. The world is a magical place if you’re open to it.”

*This story was inspired by a quotation from  Fairies and Chimneys by Rose Fyleman. It was an exercise in creating a world around another’s words.

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